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Random Talk: Secret Revealed!

Dear readers,
I will tell you a story.

Long time ago, someone abused me. Someone whom I would never expect to hurt me, someone whom I believed to.
(Well, maybe it is just fool of me, believing someone too much, when nobody may be deserved it. Because even our own shadow leaves us in the darkness. Haha.)

I thought it was good to not let anybody knew about the abusing at that time. Wrong desicion, I know. If only I told someone before.

After the abusing has stopped, and I was able to survived from it, I just realised that the problem has just begun. I tried so hard to recover, heal myself, but it was not easy. It seemed like my mind developed a kind of traumatic feelings toward the experience, and it was bring me down.

Time passed, and I finally decided to tell someone about it, because I felt like I couldn't help myself.
Well, I have to tell you that there are may be some persons who are not able to listen to your problems. For example, I have been laughed at, because he thought that my problem was not that hard (maybe, it wasn't. But, it depends on who feels it, afterall). Another person also said that I was an egoistic person for not letting that someone-who-abused-me to enter my life again so closely. Was I, after what he did to me? I even still maintain a quite good friendship to him :)
But believe me, you will meet someone who are willing to listen and help. I found him unexpectedly, and slowly he helped me healing.
(Btw, I am using the pronoun "he", but this is not necessarily means that the someone is a man.)

Then here I am. The version of me you know now is a result from a long journey, and the process is still continued (thank Allah I am still able to be here by His mercy). I still have to fix some things here and there, though. But I won't give up on myself, and I will be surely moving on, be a better version of me.

So you, who love to abuse or bully someone, please stop doing it. It has no use for you, it will leave a hard-to-heal-scar to the survivor, and furthermore it will only tell people around you that you are weak so you need to weaken someone in order to leverage your strength.

And, whoever you are who feels the same as me, if you need to talk, I am willing to listen. I will try my best to not judging though ;)